"If you don't know where you're going, any road will get you there" Alice in The Wonderland

I woke up to a post on an influencer's instastory which says, "If you don't know where you're going, any road will get you there - Alice In The Wonderland".

It brought to mind memories of my past decisions and the trail I followed after leaving the comfort of my university.

Frankly, I am not the ambitious sort of person, always ready to fight hard for their dreams and for the life they've always wanted. I don't have dreams of becoming, say, a doctor, a lawyer and or a businessman. I don't even know what I want.

Due to this lack of direction, I ended up spending 1 and a half years in Form 6 thinking I would have painted a clearer picture of my future in my head by then, but nay! I was still just as aimless as I was before. Another 3 years in Universiti Malaysia Sabah followed and I became committed to a stable relationship.

After completing our studies is when we (and our parents, no less) worry about how we will fit into today's society, bracing ourselves for more commitments in the future.

The go-to phrase among the youths these days range from "I don't know what to do" to "which job suits me". We then face a battle with our inner demons, based on the underlying choice between money or happiness.

I, on the one hand, chose happiness. This choice comes after the many struggles and dilemmas I faced that (figuratively) chocked me to death. I'm not bothered about whether or not money can buy happiness, but I was not sure about which path to follow and what m
y value even is to society.

7 months ago, I decided to take a huge step in what I think is the right path for me, and started a new life in a place unknown to me.It took a lot of courage (like, a LOT). I felt mixed feelings, excited but yet disheartened about leaving my comfort zone. I was looking forward to the new environment I will be facing, but my heavy heart worried about my family who I had left. Among all the new people I will meet and things I will face, there were so many 'what-ifs' going on in my head.

Of course, I received a lot of negative comments and opinions from people all around me, saying there won't be a future for me there, and to reconsider leaving my hometown. Yet somehow, I still truly believe in my decision. As the sun sets while I'm far away, I have no regrets.

Right now, I am grateful for and happy with the new people around me and the job I have. They showed me paths to take, guided and accepted me as who I am, and allowed me to learn and grow one little bit at a time.

So to everyone out there, it is okay to feel lost, because I doubt myself sometimes too. Everyone does! Just remember to take your time. Some achieve their goals at a young age but don't enjoy what they are doing all the while. But others hold on to their passion, and walk through the ups and downs on the path to success. So why rush? If you are feeling demotivated, just not slow down your pace and don't forget to smell the flowers along the way.

I'm not asking you to sit back and slack while jobless, but to keep in mind that there are more ways to success as you keep improving yourself. Travel, read, and see the world in more than one way. Technology is so advanced nowadays, there is no reason for you to say no! Do not be afraid. Always bear in mind that, "If you don't know where you're going, any road will get you there".